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Sorry for not updating in a while life is just crazy busy at the moment.

I started spotting this morning so Clomid round 2 is another failure.

I think this is possibly the lowest I have felt in the last 2 years, I just want to cry at the moment.

I don't like the person I am becoming. I can feel my body subconsciously giving evil looks to pregnant women I pass in the street. I don't want to be bitter but it is really hard.

For months I have been clinging on to my positivity but in the last week I just haven't been able to do this.

Everyone keeps telling me that it will happen for me, whilst I truly appreciate the support, what if they are wrong? There are couples who it never happens for, what if that is us? Those couples probably had friends telling them they were born to be parents too.

I am sorry, this isn't meant to be a pity party, I am just a little bit sad at the moment.

I am going to call the clinic today to talk about options, because I really don't think this latest round did anything.

Talk later xx