Hospital Again

I haven't been blogging very much recently, partly because I haven't had anything new to add, and partly because I have been crazy busy.

Today we have another test at the hospital to confirm the results we were given by the consultant. If the results are the same the fertility team will have a meeting about us to confirm our eligibility for funded IVF and we will then go onto a waiting list for treatment.

The last 21 months have been one long waiting game, which can be hard to deal with at times.

The results we were given at our last appointment pushed me off of my WW wagon and I have really struggled to get back on track for my fit before 30 challenge. I am going to look into joining the gym with my hubby because it will give us something to do together and the healthier we are before IVF the better our chances might be of it working.

I won't know more for a couple of weeks, but I will keep you posted once I know the outcome xxx

The Consultant Appointment

I apologise for the delay in posting an update, it has taken me until now to face writing one.

We met with our consultant last week to discuss our test results and next steps. Having spent most of the last year believing the issues were solely with me, I was shocked to be told there were issues with both of us and that we would be looking at assisted conception - IVF!

I don't even know how I held it together in that appointment but I promptly burst into tears the minute I left. It just wasn't at all what I had anticipated, I thought I would be leaving with a prescription for clomid.

To be able to refer us for IVF they need to retake the last test to double check the result. If it is the same we will then talk to the fertility nurse we saw in January for our case to be put forward for funding approval.

So we are a little in limbo right now, we don't know the current waiting list for IVF so have to wait to talk to the nurse to find out.

It wasn't the worst, we could have been told there was no hope, but it could have been better.

Will keep you posted! Xx

Nerves

The last couple of weeks have been manic with fundraising and then the office move, I haven't really had a chance to think about things. In some ways it has been a welcome distraction but this morning I woke up nervous about our consultant appointment next week.

I know we are finally getting somewhere and I am hopeful we might get some answers, or solutions, but part of me is dreading being told it won't ever happen for us.

I also worry that we will be sent for more invasive tests, and the waiting lists that those entail.

I know I need to stop thinking about it, what will be will be and all that jazz, it's just really hard.

I turn 30 next month, a milestone I didn't think would bother me. I don't feel 30 is old (nor 40 or 50 for that matter), but I do feel my biological clock is ticking so loudly my neighbours will soon be banging on the ceiling telling me to keep the noise down.

I thought I would have lots of babies by the time I turned 30, at this point I would be happy with just one.

6 sleeps to go..... eek!

Xxxxxx