It's really hard to face and almost impossible not to feel a tad bitter about.
As much as you want to spend the day celebrating and thanking your own mum, there is a big void in that you know you haven't achieved that title yourself.
I almost experienced my first Mother's Day card shop rage the other day. I was trying to find a non cheesy card that summed up the amazing support my mum has given me, when, what can only be described as a "skanky" mother (getting a good visual image from that?) started screaming at her brood of kids. They didn't seem to be doing anything significantly wrong, just usual bored kids dragged out on a shopping trip so their "skanky" mother can fill her bags with primark leggings and 20 lambert & butler. (Disclaimer - primark leggings are extraordinary good value). Anyway, back to the screaming... I seriously could have resorted to violence with this woman. Does she not know how lucky she is? And then it hit me, she doesn't.
I am a firm believer in you appreciate the things you had to fight harder to achieve. So I walked away strong in the knowledge that my baby, when I get one, will be so fortunate that it's mummy can appreciate and love him/her on a level that this "skanky" mother could never hope to reach.
My mum is amazing, she can support me like no other, because she understands. I am so lucky to have her and would be lost without her xxx happy Mother's Day mummy xx
Biggest hugs to all my long term TTC friends, you are all so strong and tomorrow is another day xxx
P.S A quick update.... I didn't achieve a positive OPK for this last Clomid round, but I did get some tests last weekend that peaked at medium darkness then faded away over the next couple of days. I am going to work on the basis that AF may be due next weekend, but who knows. Will keep you posted.
Baby dust to all xxxx
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