A Little Box That Could Change My Life!

Today, after much stress and chasing the hospital, I finally got my Clomid! Yay!

I wanted to have a little cry when the pharmacist finally handed over that little paper bag.

I just know this will be a turning point for us and feeling really positive for the next few months.

It's amazing to think that tiny little box containing 30 miracle making pills could be the difference between me being a mummy or not.

I am nervous of the side effects I may get, but at this point I would honestly go through a whole year of hot flushes, cramps, nausea, headaches, dizziness, blurry vision etc if it makes my dream come true.

Actually, thinking about it, if I do get pregnant I will probably go through nine months of all those symptoms and more anyway! :-D

The doctor has prescribed me 50mg a day to be taken on cycle days 2-6. I am currently on day 4 but have been told I can start it today (it works as long as you start it before day 6).

So first tablet tonight.... eek!

I will report back tomorrow if I have any side effects!

Wish me luck! Xxx

That Monday Feeling.....

I really don't want to face work today :0(

I started my new cycle this morning and have been cramping really badly since yesterday. Apparently it is common to have a really bad AF after a HSG so that is something to look forward to... Not!

On the plus side I will be able to start clomid round 1 this week.... That is if the prescription ever arrives from the hospital!

Feeling grumpy this morning but trying to think positively. I know I am lucky to have the clomid after a long two years of trying but a little part of me is still gutted we couldn't do it without intervention.

Need a big hug from hubby xx

Monday Weigh In

I lost a massive 6 lb! Yay!

A chunk of this would have been water retention from the antibiotics following my HSG (and subsequent infection).

But a great loss all the same!

I made really good food choices this week, week 2 here I come! Xx

One Week Down.....

........ one week to go! Of the two week wait that is. I believe I ovulated last weekend so this time next week I will either be pregnant or about to start my first round of Clomid. For the first time in almost 2 years I am feeling happy about either outcome, because progress is progress :o)

In other news, I have been extremely good on the weight watchers wagon and it's looking like I will have a massive loss when officially weighing in tomorrow. A part of this will be due to water retention from the antibiotics the week before, but I am very pleased with my food choices this week.

Today's menu:
B - toasted muffin with spread and marmite 5 pp (was meant to be an egg muffin but I had a poaching disaster with the last egg in the flat lol)
D - Cumberland pie 9 pp with broccoli and cauliflower.
T - chicken salad wrap 5 pp dairylea dunker 3 pp yogurt 2 pp
S - fruit, ww bar 2 pp

Total 26/26

Xx

That Friday Feeling...

Positive Mental Attitude is on the life menu at the moment!

I am feeling really great about life!

I am back on the wagon and looks like it will be a great loss for Monday's weigh in (yes I know I am not meant to sneak peek! Lol).

We had our great news yesterday regarding finally getting Clomid.

To top this week off it is a long Bank Holiday weekend, so no work for 3 days! Yay!

Life is good xx

On the food menu today...

Breakfast - poached egg and crumpet (5 points)
Lunch - ham salad wrap (4 points), yogurt (2 points) and dairylea dunker (3 points)
Dinner - fishfingers (5 points) mash (4 points) and peas (1 point)
Snacks - apple, mini oranges, ice pop (1 point)
Pudding - sugar free jelly and WW ice cream (1 point)

26/26

Have a great day everyone! X

Great News..... Finally Getting Clomid!!

I am so, so, so happy right now! After almost 2 very emotional years of TTC and countless tests we have finally been approved for Clomid!

I spoke to my fertility nurse this afternoon, who gave me the good news that a prescription will soon be on its way to me!

After putting down the phone I promptly burst into tears! Things are finally falling into place, I am feeling really good about this and hope this will finally give us our longed for BFP!

When we are finally holding a baby Hacker I don't think there will be a more loved or wanted child in the world.

I can't wait to get home and give my hubby a huge kiss! He has been amazing though everything!

I know we can't count our chickens yet and all that jazz, but I am feeling more positive than I have in months so I am just going with the feeling.

Fingers crossed eh?

Xxx

A Little Weight Loss Motivation...

I climbed back on the weight watchers wagon this week :-)

I AM GOING TO BE AT GOAL BY CHRISTMAS EVEN IF I HAVE TO CHOP A LIMB OFF!

Saw this brilliant poem on the community message board so thought I would share it. (not sure who the original author is to credit it).

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When you've eaten too much and you can't write it down, and you feel like the biggest failure in town.

When you want to give up just because you gave in, and forget all about being healthy and thin.

So what you went over your points a bit ? It's your next move that counts...So don't you quit !

It's a moment of truth, it's an attitude change. It's learning the skills to get back in your range.

It's telling yourself, "You've done great up till now; you can take on this challenge and beat it somehow."

It's part of your journey toward reaching your goal. You're still going to make it, just stay in control.

To stumble and fall is not a disgrace, if you summon the will to get back in the race.

But, often the struggler's, when loosing their grip, just throw in the towel and continue to slip.

And learn too late when the damage is done, that the race wasn't over... you still could have won.

Lifestyle change can be awkward and slow, but facing each challenge will help you grow.

Success is failure turned inside out, the silver tint in a cloud of doubt.

When you're pushed to the brink, just refuse to submit, if you bite it, you write it....But don't you quit.


Happy Wednesday Everyone! Xx