Nerves

The last couple of weeks have been manic with fundraising and then the office move, I haven't really had a chance to think about things. In some ways it has been a welcome distraction but this morning I woke up nervous about our consultant appointment next week.

I know we are finally getting somewhere and I am hopeful we might get some answers, or solutions, but part of me is dreading being told it won't ever happen for us.

I also worry that we will be sent for more invasive tests, and the waiting lists that those entail.

I know I need to stop thinking about it, what will be will be and all that jazz, it's just really hard.

I turn 30 next month, a milestone I didn't think would bother me. I don't feel 30 is old (nor 40 or 50 for that matter), but I do feel my biological clock is ticking so loudly my neighbours will soon be banging on the ceiling telling me to keep the noise down.

I thought I would have lots of babies by the time I turned 30, at this point I would be happy with just one.

6 sleeps to go..... eek!

Xxxxxx

A Little Update...

I have been very naughty and not updated my blog since 6 April! F for effort = must try harder!

This month has been very manic and stressful so far. Last weekend I was fundraising all week for Cancer Research and this week I am co-managing our office move!

I haven't really got anything to say on the fertility front other than I am on CD18 and waiting for our appointment with the consultant on 8 May.

On the fit and 30 challenge, I have now lost 16.5lb and have 11.5lb to go! Not looking massively likely with only 7 weigh ins left but we shall see! I would be very happy to get into my size 12 trousers by my birthday, I can get in my size 12 tops and dresses but my bottom half has alway been more challenging to lose.

A little dull but I promise to be a better blogger once this hell week is over lol xxxx

Oh Crap.... Well That Is That Then....

I had a great day looking after my niece and was in a great mood, only to get home and find I have started spotting.

It is now impossible for us to get pregnant before our consultant appointment and I am gutted.

I know at least I can focus on getting to see the consultant, I am grateful for that much, honestly I am.

But this whole situation just plain sucks!

There are so many pregnancies being announced at the moment and I just can't get over why it isn't happening for us but it happens for others without any apparent effort.

I know there are much worse things that could happen, and people much worse off with illnesses etc. I do count my blessings every day, I just want one of those blessings to be a child.

I am off to watch old Greys Anatomy in bed so I can have a good sob :'o(

Hope everyone is having a great weekend xxx

11 Weeks To Go.....

...... until fit and 30!

I lost another 1lb tonight which is amazing considering I went out on Friday and had a hungover BK on Saturday!

15lb down 13lb to go!

I thought I would share some progress photos. The before one was taken in December, two weeks after starting WW the current photo is from Friday!

:-) xxx

CD 28 - 9 DPO

I am currently on day 28 of my cycle, and based on my theory that I ovulated last Sunday I believe I am 9 DPO.

I have mega sore/full boobs this morning, (not helped by the fact I currently have a sample stuffed down my top on my way to the hospital), I was a little crampy this morning but absolutely not reading anything into symptoms this month!

I really hope AF does not arrive this weekend and I am going to try and not test until it is due to save unnecessary disappointment.

In other news, I had a brill night out on Friday with some friends I have not seen for years.

I had a few blips on my fit before 30 challenge but the scales weren't looking too shocking this morning - hopefully still the case by weigh in tonight! Lol

Xxx

A Quick Update...

I have been a little lazy with my blogging this week, but here is a quick update:

I am on CD 20 and think I ovulated yesterday so the 2WW begins...

A good friend and fellow blogger, Stacey, finally had her longed for baby boy last week! Congratulations! She gives us long term TTCers hope! X

I had a manic weekend battling with Argos over non delivery of my new wardrobes! Big complaint letter heading their way!

The week ended on a high with lunch and a girly afternoon with my little sister :-) xx

Not an amazing week on my fit before 30 challenge, I didn't fit as much exercise in as I hoped due to all the drama - must do better this week!

Xx

Fit Before 30 Update.... My First Stone!

I lost my first stone tonight! Whoop whoop!

This means I am halfway there! One stone down one more to go!

Been really good this last week so need to keep going now!

I now have 12 weeks to lose 14 lb to get to goal before my 30th birthday!

This week I will be upping my exercise - if possible I will try to do something everyday.

I want to restart my 30 day shred but I think I will try to just do a couple of days a week, instead of the daily for 30 days you are meant to do, as it is so exhausting.

I already do zumba once a week but will try to throw in some running as well - eek!

Wish me luck! Xxx